8.30am:
unfortunately another day absent from school for my eldest! After being sent home from school yesterday morning, her temperature has risen and the bucket is out & by her side! Nice!
As I write this, my mother (aka super mum!) is on route to me with some baby milk and semi skimmed (for mummy!) one of the weekly battles my mother and I seem to go through, after deciding a while ago to have some of my benefits paid directly to her following an agreement of paying her back after her, yet again, bailing me out!!! And it just so happens, as does it almost every week of present, that I am in desperate need of essentials!!
10.30am
Today is the day that I am finally having the carpets laid on the stairs! It’s only taken me 7 months, a few thousand pounds & many sleepless nights but at long last, the walls are plastered & the skirting boards are prepared !
3.00pm
on way to hospital … following doctors app for flo .. suspected appendicitis ! Absolutely blown away! I thought at the worst it would be a water infection! So colouring books and bottles for the kid are packed , and off to a&e we go!
On our way to the hospital, I have just sent the father a message to inform him of the situation, he replied asking permission to visit & be kept updated until then! It’s more then I had expected ! To be honest. The relationship between us at present is, a long way from even friendship!
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To enlighten you on the ‘relationship’ status; 9 months ago, the same week of returning home following a rather traumatic week in hospital, with a new born baby, I discovered that the father of both my children & what I thought to be my life long partner, had been secretly meeting a girl 10 years younger then him for about a year!
Il never forget that night, physically unable to react in any way other then crying! My whole world crashed down around me in a matter of minutes! Everything that I had ‘known’ regarding our relationship was at that point all absolute bullshit (to put it blunt!)
from that moment, the relationship was over, I tried to get past it, I even let him return home to try again for the girls sake, nothing seemed to get better, then another month passed and the paranoia that I had been overwhelmed by, was actually reinforced and justified as I read through call after call on my itemised phone bill to a number I recognised instantly! The same young girl! Calls made on the contract line I had taken out in my name for the boyfriend about 6 months previous!
Again, soul destroying!
So, I had no option but to draw a line and call it a day as far as our pathetic excuse of a relationship went!
Following that, and for about 7 months now I have lived in a half gutted half habitable house, with my two amazing daughters!
MISSUNDERSTOOD MUM 